Title: Chase in Shadow
Author: Amy Lane
Publisher: Dreamspinner Press
Characters: Chase Summers, Tommy Halloran
Sub-Genre: Contemporary Romance
Chase Summers: Golden boy. Beautiful girlfriend, good friends, and a promising future.
Nobody knows the real Chase.
Chase Summers has a razor blade to his wrist and the smell of his lover’s goodbye clinging to his skin. He has a door in his heart so frightening he’d rather die than open it, and the lies he’s used to block it shut are thinning with every forbidden touch. Chase has spent his entire life unraveling, and his decision to set his sexuality free in secret has only torn his mind apart faster.
Chase has one chance for true love and salvation. He may have met Tommy Halloran in the world of gay-for-pay—where the number of lovers doesn’t matter as long as the come-shot’s good—but if he wants the healing that Tommy’s love has to offer, he’ll need the courage to leave the shadows for the sunlight. That may be too much to ask from a man who’s spent his entire life hiding his true self. Chase knows all too well that the only things thriving in a heart’s darkness are the bitter personal demons that love to watch us bleed.
Angst, angst and more angst!! Whew! There is nothing like reading a story that keeps you not only enthralled with its characters, and wondering how in the world this train wreck of a hero will ever find his happy ending. I admit that this book was a labor of love at times for me to keep reading and finishing it. Yes, I loved it, but I needed to also read it in increments because of the heavy angst and sometimes very disturbing thoughts that were inside of the main character’s head.
Chase is not your typical hero. He hates his life, lives a lie, hurts the people he loves by stringing them along and at times is such a lost soul that I couldn’t help but love him. There are things he does that are despicable, and there were times I wanted to chunk my ereader across the room because his life is one big lie, and choices he makes can be very frustrating at times to read.
Having said that, living inside of Chase’s head and finding out what makes him tick, in the end made him very vulnerable, and as the story progresses it becomes understandable why he lives the way he does. He’s really not a bad guy, he’s just really messed up, and I really enjoyed watching him come to terms with his past and try to rebuild the bridges that he burned down. I really loved him and Tommy together. Tommy truly is the person that Chase is meant to be with. And, in typical Amy Lane fashion, Tommy too isn’t perfect…he’s just perfect for Chase.
This will not be a book for everyone. Chase is living with his girlfriend and cheating on her with his lover, Tommy. He’s also an actor in the pornography business, so he’s not a faithful man. There are also M/F scenes in this book, which I know will turn some readers away. As I stated before, Chase is FAR from perfect, but if readers DO give this book a chance, everything will be explained and he ends up being a redeemable character in the end.
Get your hankies out for this one. There were many, many moments I teared up throughout the book. If you are looking for a light read, go elsewhere. But, sometimes I know I crave a dark and gritty romance, and Chase in Shadow, fit that bill for me. Amy Lane is the master of getting inside her characters’ heads and revealing what really makes them tick. I know when I read a book written by her, it’s not necessarily going to be an easy one to read, but I am always rewarded by experiencing a wonderful story in the end. If you are looking for a romance with troubled but redeemable characters, this book is definitely for you!
Reviewed By: Gabbi